Hey Luves , Happy Holidays I hope everyone is enjoying the holiday season.

I am currently trying to get into the holiday spirit, having grown child the holidays have definitely been different for me I still Love it, but it is not as fun on the other hand it is also not as stressful Thank God!

As I am sitting here thinking a message came to me “Change is Okay. Over the last year or so I have felt guilty for changing not being as social I used to. Not being as present for others as I may have been in the past just not being the exact same person, I was a year or five years ago.

When I think about my life currently some may think I have changed I think I am becoming more honest with myself about who I have always been.

In my 20’s and early 30’s even though I socialized a lot I would also hit my capacity and take breaks for months at a time. Even though I love to dress up and have a good time I am truly a homebody at heart. In my 40’s this has changed a bit I am now the ultimate homebody.

From age 34-38 I spent a lot of time growing and finding myself in a lot of ways while also masking a lot of sadness. During that time, I masked my sadness with pretty pictures quotes on social media, socializing and always being there for others.

If any one of my friends wanted to go out and do anything they knew they could call me because I was down to roll.

What they didn’t know is that I would be sad when I got home there was always a void especially once my daughter was grown and out of the house. In most cases while they went home to someone, I was alone.

I also spent most of those same years renting rooms from family members to pay for my daughter college, moving to a new state & losing a job simply said I never felt settled socializing was a momentary escape from feeling low.

Now that I am settled and happy in my life have to remind myself that change is okay:

• It is okay to stay home on a Friday Night have a cocktail with my partner and watch Netflix!
• It is okay that the highlight of my weekend might be going to target or putting together a piece of furniture in my new place.
• It is okay that I stay in more than I go out or that the only person I go out with is my partner.
• Sometimes put on a full face of make up just to change my mind wipe off and head to bed and that is okay.

What these changes have shown me:

• I have always been a simple girl and for me that is okay.
• I love having someone to come home to that also loves coming home to me and that is okay.
• I owe some of my friends that never went out without their husbands or boyfriends an apology lol I didn’t understand.
• What life feels like to live without high stress or high anxiety and depression.
• I understand what my mom meant when she said were not put on earth to be alone.
• If I don’t call people, they don’t call me and that is okay.
• I had a lot of growing up to do!
• Peace is something that money cannot buy, and it is beautiful.

I Love where my life is right now, and I believe in the next year it will get even better. I know that I will continue to grow and change, and I am okay with that! I do look forward to having more balance in the upcoming year.

How has life changed for you recently? I would love to hear about it.

Thank you as always for visiting my site and reading. Let me know what you think of my blog so far.

Until Next Time

xoxo Kieks